Welcome to a whole new series of posts on Mascara Every Saturday! I wish I could say I’m excited to be here, but if I’m being entirely honest, I’m terrified. Not of losing the weight, but of sharing a lot of really personal details with you. Details that I’d rather keep to myself, but in the interest of both, offering advice and support to people on the same path as me and also, to keep myself motivated by logging my progress weekly for you on my blog, I will disclose for the first time ever.
Why do I want to lose weight?
You know how a lot of people who start on this journey say “It isn’t about losing weight or looking good, for me, I want to feel healthier and be fitter”? Yeah, I’m just not one of them. If it were up to me, if I could shovel pizza and ice cream into my mouth 24×7, never set foot in a gym and still be slim, I’d be all about that life.
I’m not totally unhappy with the way I look at the moment. I have a decent amount of self-esteem and self-confidence (although we all have our bad days). I don’t have a problem finding clothes that fit me in stores. I don’t consider myself unattractive and I’m very much about celebrating curves, whatever size you are and being comfortable with the skin you’re in. I love food, cocktails and prosecco too much to ever consider depriving myself of them and I’m not one to spend hours working on my bikini body or trying to squeeze myself into a size 8. It just isn’t who I am and I believe that pushing for that is a bit, okay, totally unrealistic.
For me, this journey is about looking better in the clothes I wear and want to wear, feeling better about myself than I do now and looking the way I’ve always wanted to look. Yes it is entirely superficial, but whatever. There’s nothing wrong with that.
How do I plan on losing it?
I’ve struggled to lose weight for years, until I realized I was doing it all wrong. I would wake up one morning and decide that I’m going to start eating really healthy and start working towards my goals. I wouldn’t eat enough during the day and in a few days, I’d start craving pizza and burgers and chocolate but try and suppress the cravings until I was practically blue in the face. I’d then eventually lose all control and splurge on whatever I was craving, get depressed right after I finished eating it and think “Well I’ve fallen off the wagon now, so what’s the point?” and another six weeks of unhealthy choices would follow. Same with exercise. I never found a form of exercise I actually enjoyed, forced myself to go to the same park and walk in circles every day like a hamster on a wheel, and eventually get bored and resent it. NOT the way to go.
However, last August, I tried the Weight Watchers program and for the first time in my life, I lost 12lbs over a span of two months! And the best part – I was still going out to eat with James. I still drank prosecco and had an ice cream after dinner some days. Even better – I barely ever went to the gym! Each week I’d lose a healthy 2-3lbs without depriving myself or forcing myself to do things I didn’t want to do, and that’s when I knew that that was the way forward.
I fell off the wagon when I went home to Bombay for a month and got way too excited to go out with James and my friends and eat all the foods I loved back home and couldn’t eat in the UK. When I got back to Manchester, it was winter so it was positively freezing and would go dark at 3pm – not ideal conditions to be walking to my meeting which was quite a long walk away. Since I don’t drive, couldn’t spend loads of money on taxis taking me to my Weight Watchers meeting and didn’t want to bother James after work, I stopped going. However, I knew that whenever I would get back on the wagon, that I would always go back, because the WW program was that effective for me.
I had my first weigh in yesterday after 6months of not being in to see them, and I’m happy to report that I only gained back 0.5lbs of the 12lbs I had originally lost! And encouraging start and proof that if you’re balancing your unhealthy choices out with exercise (I go to zumba classes twice a week and the gym once or twice a week) and healthy eating, even if you’re not religious about it, it isn’t hard to keep the weight off.
Where am I at now and what is my goal?
I’m a standard UK size 14, but sometimes a 16 depending on the brand and fit as I always tend to like my clothes fitting a bit more relaxed, rather than being too fitted. My ideal size would be a size 10 and I’m giving myself between 8months to a year to get there. Its only two dress sizes and, I think, an achievable goal based on my habits and body type.
My starting weight as of today is 11st 13.5lbs or 167.5lbs or roughly 76kg, depending on what unit you chose to measure in and I am 5ft 7.5 inches tall or 171cm. My BMI is 25.8 which is classed as overweight. So yeah. Not loving that. Would love to be down to a normal / healthy BMI soon.
What can you expect from the Weight Loss series on the blog?
My local Weight Watchers have their weigh in day every Thursday. So every Friday I will share with you how much weight I lost that week plus exactly what I’ve eaten and how much I exercised that week to get those results. I will also share some info on how the program works, what I’ve learned from it, what I’ve learned about exercise, etc. now and then.
Please don’t expect mirror selfies of me in my underwear showing you before and after photos of my body. They make me ridiculously uncomfortable, but believe me, not as uncomfortable as they’d make you!
It is important to note than I am fairly broke at the moment as I had a bit of a shopping spree last month, and James is on a business trip for the next two months. So the food choices I make over the next couple of months may not be a true reflection of my life, because I usually go out to eat a lot, get a couple of takeout meals and go on at least 2-3 nights out a month, which involve a decent amount of alcohol. But till I’ve managed to recover my money situation in May, I will be being a good girl. Or trying to anyway. 😇
I hope you enjoy reading about my journey as much as I enjoy sharing it with you! See you at the next post! xx
(Disclaimer: None of my posts are sponsored by / in affiliation with Weight Watchers. I just genuinely believe it is a great system that delivers results and works well for me.)